YET again.

well.. im doing it again... im falling for a straight guy.. YET AGAIN.. story of my life. hahaha. i guess i couldnt jst not think about guys, or i jst couldnt NOT not have a crush on someone, its like i need to constantly be liking someone in order for me to be happy, and comfortable with myself... its funny how ive known this guy for my whole high school life, and im barely actually falling for him. i mean, i did think he was cute as the years progressed, but NOW, senior year has put him in a new light, ive really noticed him this year. and im loving it... i feel like its junior year all over again, except this time its with a different guy, the reason being.. the guy actually talks to me, makes me laugh, and isnt bothered by my extremely obvious flirting, (well atleast i think, i mean im pretty obvious, but you never know), and its because for these reasons that im really into him.

i guess that whenever this type of guy comes my way, i always think that i could change him, that it would jst take one night.. or not even a night, more like our conversations, and us bonding together, that he could turn on me, and be my one and only that ive been looking for, but i have to bring myself down to reality everytime, and i dont mind at all. i jst enjoy the time that i have, and make the best of it. i know that ill get over him sooner or later, and he will jst be added to the list of guys that i crushed on deeply while in high school. now that i think about it.. he might be the last one...