My December.

so ive been away from bloggin for a long time now. like 3 weeks no?? idk what happened, but im back. last blog was like in the beggining of december, and now im on thee last day of december. remembering the december i had, and anxious for the new year to arrive.

my december has really been stressful. money stressful is a better explanantion. who knew that i would have to buy lots of presents this year within a budget. woahh. the last week before going into winter break, i had 3 presents to give out. they were secret santa/ white elephant. since i get sooo guilty buying a cheao present, i try and go all out, which is my downfall. EXTREMLY. well yes anyway. that week had me all stressed out, aside from the presents, there was school. im officially failing government AP. woahh, what a nice present to have going into christmas week. right?? that had me down during school. in the afternoons it was a much better atmosphere. ASB secret santa was FUNN. i took apple pie. which i dont even know if it was eaten LOL. i loooved all the food that was taken. by the end of the event i was pregnant with triplets (food babies). woahh. it was sooo good though!. aha. but yeah. we ate, gossiped, and had a blast. when exchange of gifts came.. it was funny to see who had gotten who. i was wrong about the person that i thought had me. instead of julisa it was mae! haha. she gave me exactly what i wanted. EDWARD CULLEN !. ahaha. a poster that is now on my wall, behind my laptop, that is staring at me as i type this. aha. soooo HOT. lol. white elephant was a blast!. people got the craziest gifts ever i swear!. from a rubber chicken, to tapatio, to mustaches. pretty fxcken hilarious! i stole a bennie from ms buen but then she stole it back. booo. i got a movie in the end. the wedding date. which i lovee! ahah. it was pretty fun. lots of giftcards were being stolen, restolen, and stolen again. i had a really good time.

AA potluck was very yummy as well. lots of good food.! i was pregnant yet again! lol. i took macaroni pasta. yummy. interaction was made with friends and their families. ahaha. roro that slore and her man. talking while gallegos dissed us saying that 2013 or 2014 class would be better than us. WAT EVER! ahah. backstabber! over all it was a really good night.

two birthday parties ocurred while i was away from blogger. eddies and andrews. !

EDDIE: ohh myyy what a fun night that was. from the bomb tacos via the taquero, to the HILARIOUS kareokee time. ahaha. i swear those tacos were bomb. i had like 8 ! fatass right? ahah. it was heaven though. friends played twister, then i joined. i won my round! because andrew couldnt handle my ass being right on his face. ! AHAHAHA. that was a really hard move i had to make. im glad he gave up. i dont think i would have have hold it. after that it was kareokee time!. woot. OMG that was the best first experiece with kareokee ever. from destinys child, to hilary duff, it was a pretty crazy ass time. LINA and BEXY were they main entertainment of the night. their crazyness surely deserves an award. ahahaha. they were screaming crawling on the floor, and twisting in every way they could.
BEST MOMENT OF THE NIGHT:

so we were doing kareokee and lina was cooking herself some meat for tacos, on a pan. were being loud and having a good time, i guess lina wanted to know what all the fuss was about bc she came from the kitchen stood infront of the tv screen stirring the meat from the pan that she removed from the stove!. i swear! it was fxcken hilarious. she jst popped out of nowhere with a pan that was steaming like huge amounts of smoke where coming out of its contents. like always andrew couldnt handle it and he went to the corner laughing sooo hard. ahaha. OMG. funny ass night.

ANDREW: so andrew didnt know that his mom was planning a surprise birthday party for him. it was the sweetest thing ever. she decorated the house hollywood theme, (fits perfect with andrew duhh) like she went all out. it was really pretty. when andrew arrived he was like speechless for like 5 seconds and then he came back to reality. aww. he cried while hugging his mom. i felt tears coming to my eyes but i holded them back. pretty sweet moment. his mom had a slideshow of pictures of his life growing up via the tv. WOAH. what a change! ahaha. it was really cute seeing his baby self. i myself made an appearance in that slideshow ! woot! a picture that we had taken our sophmore year, when we were both wearing hollister. (: pretty nice right? aww. it turned out that at his party there was a taquero as well. ohh myyy. i was sooo down for more tacos. ahaha. ate like 8 yet again. ! im such a fatass i confess. but dont think im like a fat person like the "deco commissioner" from homecoming time. remember that person? well yeah. im not like that at all. thank god. ! (: but anyways we had a bomb ass time. dancing occurred in the backyard. pretty intense stuff. kristal my black friend was trying to hold back on her slutty dancing ahaha. she was soo tempted but she didnt want to corrupt the minds of the little kids that where watchin us. WHICH SHE FAILED ON. ! a little girl copied her bending over! omg sooo funny. ! ahaha. the night of course couldnt have been completed without the show that LINA put on. ahaha. ohhh myyyy. she was dancing ALL CRAZY! crawling, giving lapdances, gettin hyphy. omg sooo funny. ahah. LINA always knows how to entertain us. (:

the week after was christmas week. lots of mall trips were made. family ones and one with friends. thee guys to be exact. ahaha funny time. walked all around the mall, went to spencers, had a funny ass time, and did all random stuff. by random i mean, miguel conversating with a hobo at starbucks. ahaha. sooo freaky. we where there at starbucks and a guy jst goes to where miguel is sitting and starts telling him his life story. ahaha. i could tell miguel was uncomfortable. LOL. took some picture and posted them on twitter. who wouldnt??? LOL.!... eddie kept bitching at me the whooole time we where there. bitching about how im such a desperate debbie. AHAHAHAHAH. seriously! the whole time!. even on the car back home. ! LOL. ohhh eddie. he is FUNNY. and ignorant. (:

christmas was fun. i got a aero sweater, which fits me o soo well. (: love itt. and lots of giftcards. (:

the week that im on now has been pretty blah. nothing has happened. YET. well, maybe something has, a boy, but more about that another time. <3>

OH!!! i almost forgot! i got my permit! woot! after my second time LOL. i passed it with 5 mistakes. niceee. ! that is the good news about that situation, the bad news is that i got my permit like 2 weeks ago, and ive been only taken out to drive one day, for like 10 mins. ohhhh myyyy G. i get sooo furstrated! i need to practice more! gahhh. but my sister is soo lazy. -_-.

catched up now? good. lol. i left some stuff out, like christmas day movie night. watched sherlock holmes. cassie was crazy. she passed a chapstick around. a chapstick that looked liek a joint. we all were like O.o haha. dennys afterwards. good meal!.

me tired. ill post stuff more frequently!!. woot.

DEAD week.

this week has jst been a dead week for me. nothing really happened. my friends, (eddie r) kept making fun of me when ever i looked sad. he kept talking about how i was emotional cause of apollo, which was certainly not the case. i had gotten over him monday night. but that didnt stop eddie from still talking about my desperation haha. i got a new nickname (desperate debbie) which was noncee's nicknmae before i think, but now i got that tittle. lol.

MONDAY. aside from all the homework drama. it was a pretty blahh day. apparently i still showed signs of sadness and it was pretty obvious to everyone. i retold my story to friends, and got rejected from gettin apollos number. LOL. by the end of school i was pretty much over him. walked to OC with andrew, before gettin picked up by cassie. she dropped us off and we jst killed time. the test was like watever to me at this point and time. i jst wanted to be done with bio. when class was over, walked to my sisters so she could take me home, but then nelle called me to go to the basketball game. got dropped off home, left my stuff, and walked back to hueneme. stayed in the quad listening to my ipod. nelle came and we entered the gym. got me some cup o noodles YUM. soon more friends showed up. we had fun. they kept talking about random stuff, and laughin the whole time. got me a second cup o noodle. (they were bomb) intense game that was. tied up and moved into overtime. we won in the end though.

TUESDAY. nothing exciting happened.

WEDNSDAY. school was school. came home. prepared for my sister's surprise birthday. lots of food we had. pizza, ceaser salad, chicken pasta, enchiladas, garlic bread. o soo yummy. cousins came stuffed our bellys till we were pregnant with triplet food babies. played "would you rather" with an app that i got for my itouch. pretty interesting things came up lol. "would you rather pull out ur hair one by one, or pull your dog's teeth one by one" we all chose pull dogs teeth. AHAHAHAH. we are sooo selfish. talked to our other couisin via webcam. people started to leave. when everyone left i still talked via webcam. studied the drivers manual while my cousin did homework. finish readin and took some online practice tests. PASSED ALL of them!.

THURSDAY. the only great thing about this day was the ASB/YR book picture fieldtrip. left as soon as nutrition was over, and had done our regular asb business. bus ride was fun. listened to my ipod, and tried to get into pictures from behind. i was successful (: itzy called me andrew. ohh nooo!. haha arrived at ventura pier. this year the picture was taken at the very end of the pier. windy day, not soo good for my hair. i feel like im gonna come out super ugly in it. but to get my hopes up. i KNO for a FACT that the YEARBOOK picture will look EXTREMELY UGLY because THE HUNCHBACK WAS LAYING IN FRONT LIKE HE WAS FREAKING LITTLE MERMAID. soo that got my hopes up. OH! and he was laying on DOG PEE. (: as soon as that was over we rushed back to thee bus because we all knew what was next. MALL. yay. the bus there was filled with desperation. well on my part. haha. that got shot down immediately when we arrvied. we only had 30 mins to shop becasue yrbook didnt get permission to leave 6th. ughh. FML. well i went to shop, and i wasnt going to leave empty handed. while my friends went to eat i went to shop. it was funny. trying out clothes here and there. when it was time to leave, i felt accomplished bought two shirts and a pair of skinnies, and i tried all of them out. FAST SHOPPER huh? well i did go on a mission, and nobody was going to ruin it. as i walked in the bus everyone was staring at me. like he had time to go shopping. yeah that right bitches. i went to the mall to SHOP, not to EAT. haha. loved thee feeling. got back to school. we were free to leave. went to thee parking lot, with miguel and friends. tried to bust a mission by fittin 9 people into a five people car. 3 people sayed they were down to go in the trunk. pretty embarrasing moment, hoping into the trunk and closing it. ohh nooo. that was crazy. but then they couldnt take it so two left. i decided to leave as well, i had to be back at school for fakken tutoring. so i left. i was going to go home, but i decided to go to thee DMV to take my permit test. if only my parent had gone with me i would of taken it. i needed parent signature so i was unable to take it. nothing interesting happend afterwards. tutoring, and the rest of the evening.

FRIDAY. school was school. afterschool we had a LAME AA meeting. i was going to go take my permit test that afternoon but NO. stupid gallegos wants everyone PRESENT in these meeting. ugh. there went my afternoon. when that was over i left home. my day wasnt over though. got a txt from jana asking if i wanted to go to thee movies. of course!. we went in a huge group. 12 of us to be exact. we watched BROTHERS. pretty ok movie. only one tense filles part. came home and watched two online movies. CLOUDY WITH A CHANCE OF MEATBALLS and JULIE & JULIA. both were very loveable movies. (:

pretty blah week it was right. ? well next week for sure im taking my permit. tuesday to be exact. lame BIO class is taking up my monday afternoon. ugh! i jst want to be done with it already. wish me luck.

rollercoaster ride.

.... ugh. well. what a heckit thanksgiving day it was. i can finally say that ive been taken on a rollercoaster ride. a boy has finally noticed me. but damm. what ride did he freaking take me on.

well it all started thanksgiivin day (thursday) i happen to go on twitter and noiced that my friends xilen, and cassie were having a conversation. idk how but i joined. all morning me and them were conversating via twitter, wich is kind of ironic becasue i hate it when people converse via twitter lol. but yeaah n e whoo. we were conversating about all kinds of things, from a turkey penis, to a thong in a jar, to my big mouth, and my infactuaiton with penises haha. what a great way to start of a holiday. well yeah. as we were conversating xilen's cousins were at her house, they came down for the holiday. one of them noticed me. i guess nobody knew he was gay becasue at first he was dening it, everyone was blaming me becasue apparently i had very STRONG GAY HORMONES and that they were reaching him and i was turning him gay. he thought i was cute, because of my hair. "hes into curly hair and shit" said xilen. well yeah he kept denying it unitl he finally cracked and told xilen that he was gay. she announced it in twitter with capital letters. haha. by this time i hadnt really payed attention to her tweets saying that her cousin was into me, but then as soon as she said that he was gay, then i began to notice. i began to ask her questions about him, non stop if he was really into me. and he was. i found it shocking that someone had finally noticed me, my tummy began to get filled with butterflies. i told xilen. well then HOOK US UP!. then she hit me with the news. "idk fernie, hes from frisco (san fran) so idk how thatll work" as soon as she said that. my stomach was empty. butterflies were no where to be found. i felt so empty and sad. i didnt even know what to say. i mean i didnt know the guy, butt he fact that he was into me. the first boy that was interested in me, made me feel close to him. i wanted to be with him, in some strange sorta way. very weird of me to say. i sound crazy right??? well i couldnt really help myself. ive never been hit with that kind of emotion before. well yeah. i was sad. but then she told me that he was still after me. butterflies came back into my stomach soo quickly. it was a boost to my ego. knwoing that someoen was chaising me. haha. but yeahh. i got all happy again.
as afternoon came, i felt like he was taking forever to ask for my number. i mean. how long does it take for someone to ask for a number if they are really interested right? well yeah. i found out that he didnt know what to say. that got me a little sad again. y couldnt he jst try it out?. then she said " he doesnt wanna fuck it up, because he doesnt know what to say" that made me happy again becasue in my ears it sounded like he wanted to have something. and he didnt wanna mess up his chances. but since xilen has no cellular device, she had to get off and that was the last thing i heard from them all night. if ur wondering why dont i jst speak to him personally? then heres my answer.

i had asked xilen if he had a myspace, she said he didnt, not even facebook. i was like ummmm u serious?. i mean myspace isnt that big today as it wwas before but i found it really weird that he didnt. he didnt aske for my number for reasons stated above. why didnt i just give him my number by myself, or ask for his number? well i was caught up in the moment, filled with untouched emotion that i didnt have thee mind to do those things.

so yeah. i was sad all night. not being able to hear from them. woke up next morning and still nothing on twitter. apparently xilen had gone black friday shopping so she woke up really late. she was sleeping while i was over here becomign anxious. i sound obsessed right? ahaha understand me and dont judge. well yeah she finally came on, but he wasnt at her house. he was visitin his grandpa. i told her that i felt that his feelings might of gone away but then she told me that she didnt think so. earlier he had called her asking if i was gonna go to the game that was going to be taking place at my school. CIF football. hueneme (us) versus westlake. so i got all happy again. he said he wanted to try and go if i was. made me realize that he wanted to meet up. so i got all happy. got dressed, and when it was time to leave i left. i had butterflies in my stomach until the game started. but before that xilen came down with another set of news. she wasnt going to be able to attend thee game. i was like ughhhhhhhh! nooooo. she said that he might still show up, since he hadnt called her telling her otherwise. but how was i supposed to know who he was? i didnt have his number. he didnt knwo where i hanged out or sit. and i didnt even know how he looked. NOW i do sound like im on fakken crack right? being obsessed with this boy that i dont evne know, and dont even know how he looks. all i knew about him was that he was 19, he went to artschool in san fran. and that he was "toned". that was all i knew about him. but yeah i waited in the place where xilen usually sits to see if he might see me there but nobody came up to me. after a while i descended down to my regular seat with my friends.

during the whole game. i had that empty feeling again. i knew that he hadnt told me personall that he was gonna attend, but i thought that he WAS surely gonna come. the game didnt help at all. we lost bad. nobody was in the mood that night. we hardly cheered. not to say that i was because i didnt. the cold was a major thumbs down as well. freezing as hell, and wind that wouldnt stop blowing. my hair looked like sex hair. well yeah. i came home after it was over but no twitter stuff. went to sleep empty. woke up today. went on twitter, but nothing. it wasnt until the afternoon when i found out that he had left back to san fran. at this point i was crushed. not like super crushed, like crying and stuff, but the empty feeling got bigger. xilen told me that he wanted to take me out to eat becasue they were going out to celebrate the win that xilen had on soccer, but that if i went his dad might of flipped out. his family doesnt know about his sexuality. so i wouldnt wanna have caused problems anyway. this made me fell a little better. i asked her if he had said anything. she hit me with another pair of news. "he said he will try harder next time and he'll take out" the butterfies came pouring in. ughhh.

im guessing the next time he will come would be for christmans vacation. i hope he does. he gave me a reason for me to look forward to winter break. i hope he does come, and then we can try it out, finally try it out. ughh.


now u see the kind of ride i was in these past three days. ughh. this boyy i swear.

I've NEVER.........

well another great day of this week off. well i think its better to say great afternoon since i pretty much didn't no anything in the mornign except wake up shower and eat. well to get straight to thee point.

ive noticed that we officially have a cassie movie night classic game to play!. its Ive never.. (10 finger game) we always seem to play it when ever cassie holds a movie night. and its always at night after most people have gone home, and thee movies have ended. its always the same group of friends playing as well, occassionaly new people come in and its fun to see their reactions to peoples questions and results. ima stay true to thee saying what ever happens at cassies house, stays at cassies house. so i wont spill any of the stuff that is said there. BOY do stuff really get spilled. ahahaha. sooo mnay juice facts that ive never known. it makes me feel like i kno my friends more now. ahaha. to tease a bit, our games arent innocent, they are xxx-rated. meaning the most type of questions being asked are sexual, so u get the point in what i mean JUICY facts.
n e whoo. i find it extremely funny that my friends ask these sexual questions, mostly aiming at me, expecting me loose very quickly. but in fact, im such an innocent person (even though i dont act like one, i act like a MAJOR SLORE! (slut/whore) ahah) and people jst dont believe that, they find it shocking to know that i havent done the things they say. i mean, im pretty much an open book., (no lie) but my book doesnt have that many facts, yes it does have some pretty interesting juicy ones, but not alot. well yeah, anyways. we spent like an hour playing that game, FUNNY as hell to see people going into the "40 fingers" mark. not to mention any names, *cough* ANDREW! *cough* lol. soo funny. and this happen while i was still on my first round (10 fingers). see what i mean im the most innocent one there, apart from cassie, that slore is more of an angel than me, or is sheee,, hmmm she might not want to reveal some stuff ahah, but i still love her. (:
yes people do try to get me out but not as much as my friend eddie r. like ooomygod. i swear hes like out to get me, and reveal everything about me. every sexual questions he says its always aimed at me, he get furstrated when he sees that ive never done them haha. so he goes to the most obvious questions, "ive never been borned in mexico, ive never own a hollister shirt, ive never permed my hair (which doesnt even apply to me in the first place. ahaha). " but yeah. i love that game. i dont mind spilling a few secret here and there and i certainly dont mind gettin to know people wayyy better ahah.

FUN. right?

NEW MOON day.

OOHHHHHH MYYYYY!. what a day it was today. ugh well i guess i would call it yesterday since its 12:30 am right now. ugh!. y do i keep forgettin to blogthe day of, when these things happen? idk. ugh. ill try next time. n e whoooo. yesterday was the day that i watched NEW MOON. omg woke up hella early to get ready. i didnt have a ride so i had to take the bus. eww scary. ! i wasn't supposed to be traveling alone, andrew was suppossed to go with me but him and his fakken hair took wayyy to long to get ready. ahahahaha. he would of said the same thing about me if i took long. HOW FUNNY. well yeahhe bailed on me so i had to go on it by myself. it was weird. everyone was staring at me. hmmm maybe they are staring at my hair was my initiall thought. but who knows. jst as long no one fakken touched me i would of been fine. but i doubt my friends would believe that i wouldnt let people touch me AHAHAHAH. cassie thee slore txted me saying that i was going to get raped. LOL. which all my friends are convinced that if rape and fernie (me) were put in the same sentence. it wouldnt mean what it was meant to mean. ( that was confusing) i meant. it wouldnt be considered rape. ahaha. ohhh myy. i guess i am a slore in their eyes. i dont mind. i like it. LOL. well yess back to thee bus. it took like 20 mins max to get to my destination. OH.! and i got off on the wrong stop LOL. i got off wayy too early soo i had to walk my ass to the theater. how lame is that right. ? well yes i got there and eddie was already there complaining about how fakken cold it was. WHICH IT WASNT EVEN COLD. i was burning in that heat. and him and his sweater were making it hotter. well later cassie, her relatives, and claudia arrived. boguht our tickets, and hurried inside to get some good seats.

5 mins into the movie lina comes stumbleling in. taking little baby steps to reach us. pretty funny. 30 mins into the movie. jannelle, andrew, and miguel come walking in not knowing where they were ahah. omg well for the most part i loved NEW MOON. ahhhh it was sooo sad it made me think about myself. and how im lonely and i dont have my own edward. (im startin to tear up ahahahaha wow.) i loved the hallucinations, and the way the movie was made overall. the ending was my favorite part though. ahhh. "marry me......" ugh. i seriously cant wait till eclipse comes out. it better be bomb like this one. afterwards we went outside chilled for like 10 mins, cassie left, chilled for more time, decided we were all hungrey and made a choice to go to dennys, all 7 of us. in miguel's 5 person car. lol ohhh myy that car ride was funnyy! i was shotgun thank god! ahaha the back was jannelle claudia eddie and andrew. lina was laying on the feet ahahahaahahahahaha omg it was hilarious. i was soo scared that we were gonna get stopped by thee cops and miguel would get a ticket, or something worse would of happen with him not even having a license ahaha. so i was official cop monitor. hahah. got to dennys, ordered our food. cassie joined us shortly. ate and talked major kinds afterwards. we were in there for like 2 hours. ahahah.
ohhh myy. lina and her refils. she wasted eddied paycheck ahahahahaha. not really but most of it. our bill was 106.26 WOW. right? lina busted out her change and was determined to pay off a small amount with quarters, dimes, nickels, and pennies. aahahah. ohh myy. the cashier was looking at us all weird.

we hoped back into miguel's car (i wasnt shotgun this time -_-) and drove off to lina's family donut shop. ate some more ice cream. by this time i was ready to pop. my belly couldnt take it anymore. ! walked into the brand new big lots. looked around, jumped into some matresses to "test" them out. LOL. went to dollar tree afterward. jannelle bought herself some disney princesses socks. ahahaha. it was time to leave. we hoped into miguel's car one more time. ahaha by now it was 6 people in the car. lina left with her dad. started again on a journey. went to chedder point (center point mall) cause miguel needed to buy food for his siblings. went in thee girls went shopping , i joined , AHAHA, made jannelle decide on what shirt she should buy. she ended up buying it and walking out the store wearing it. ahaha. ohhh myyy. now we were gettin dropped off one by one. i was 3rd lol. pretty fun morning it was.

the rest of the afternoon was filled with rest, computer, and tv. and then lots of txting. pretty funn. it got dark and i was still txting. me and johnny were talking about how lonely we are, and how we need a man. i was in an emotional status while doing this. i didnt cry or anything but i was pretty sad. ugh. love is soo blind sometimes. i wish someone would read my mind, and see what i wish could happen... maybe then i wont be so lonely.

pretty weird how the day went from great to OMG great. to sad and emotional. ughh. i liked the day overall, thats all that matters.

College APPS, & FUN TIMES.

ugh. well ive been working on my college apps like this week. i dont wanna be waiting till the day of like i do with any toher assignement. this is ONE thing that i cant procastinate on. ironicly enough, i barely started so i jst kinda contradicted myself. but idc. ahaha i didnt procastinate as much as i regularly do, so its fine. well i have only done and finished CSU's. i dont really plan on going to CSU's but hey, its a back up plan. so its cool. those applications were a pickel though. like oooomygod. it took me like 3 hours to finish the firs one. THANK GOD that everything that i put for that app got saved so now i jst had to submit the other apps with the same info. i applied to L.A., long beach, northridge, and some other one that i forgot ahaha. well once that was done, it was a sign of relief. but i couldt rest jst yet. nextup were the UC's. well apart from already being in "ELD" as lina hul(k) says . and already gettin a guarantedd acceptance in four of the 9 UC's i applied to two other ones. that werent "ELD" approved. those were LA and (ugh! i forgot, dammit what is wrong with my memory). well yeah, i havent submitted the applications yet, but they will be done by this friday. i dont want to be worrying about them over our free thanksgiving week. so they must be done.

well time came to go home, (4:30 ahahahaha) but we had decided, well bexy decided for all of us to go help out on making our shirts for the senior panoramic. but i didnt want to go do that at all. im like soooo done with paint, stensils, and shirts. like ughh, let the professionals do it. well anyways, they walk to claudias house was pretty fun. we talked and stopped like every 20 steps LOL. played "would you rather" wich is always fun ahaha. got honked at by some car, well I got honked at ahahahaha. loving it. when we got there we got the news that we were jst short on time for food, so we decided to order pizza for ourselfs and so we did. we pigged out until my stomach felt like it was going to pop. ouch. i personally didnt do anything. expect to cover one stensil with a thicker border. YAY ME! hah. well the rest of my time i spent doing cherry pickers, thigh workouts, dancing, singing, bending down, and pretending to be in the olympics, as a ribbon girl ahah. the other major thing that i did, was to be a cheerleader. wow.that was soo fun. coach magana was amazing. i made varsity! GO CHEER!. i learned my favorite slutty routine, and i personally think that i nailed the slutty part of it haahah. other parts are "good". i also learned how to jump, and do an actual cheer. we had to put on a routine for HEAD COACH(lesbo) Gomez. (LOL) but when she saw it she was extremely dissapointed that we werent good enough. she gave us more time to practice. ahaha. but yes, i soooo nailed the slut parts of the routine. what can i say?? they are like SECOND NATURE to me.

No one to hold on to.

well, here i go again being a pussy about my life. well i just cant help it, i feel sooo alone at this age. when other people are talking on the phone with their significant other im jst at home watching tv lettin my life pass, sometimes i wish so hard that my one and only would see me somewhere and start talking to me. im so sick of crushing on guys that i cant have, they like pussy, and i cant seem to accept it, i guess im attracted to things or should i guy people that i cant have. when ever i see people out there in the world holding hands with their loved ones, huggin them, kissing them, expressing their love for one another, it just makes me even more sad to know that i cant experience what they are experiencing. i wish i could have someone to hold on to, someone that i can go out with, someone that i can spend my nights talking on the phone with, someone who i keep thinking about soo much that my grades start to fall, (lol) i might sound like im overreacting, or that im like desperate to have someone, but i personally dont think im none of those things.. i wanna love someone for who they are, and i want them to love me back. where i live, i jst cant seem to find HIM, yes theres some guys that are interested in me, but im not interested in them whatsoever, and i dont wanna be leading them on to something that will never be there. i want to be the one gettin lead on by someone else, i want to be the one that someone makes a move on, but ive been waiting for that to happen these four years in high school, but nothing, and nobody has comed my way. time keepsgoing by and i keep being by myself. i want to be able to say "i have a BF" or "that was my ex" but thats just not the case right now. hopefully i will be able to find my one and only in the near future, or maybe HE will be the first one to find me, but i just hope that that "near future" isnt years away. im tired of this life already, i want a change, SOMEONE to fill that empty space next to me.

Just DANCE!!!

after going to sleep at 12 in the morning, or was it 1, i cant really remember. well n e whoo, i had to wake up at 6 freaking 30 to take a shower to leave to decorate thee gym for thee dance. at least that was my plan, BUT i woke up late, decided not to take a shower at all and just go how i was, with my sex hair haha. arrived there, was the first one there. LOL, then people started coming. jesicaaa got us some donuts for breakfast. TY jesicaaa ! as soon as ms buen opened the ASB room we started to get to work. took all of the mass produced mushroom, and butterflies to the gym. we started to cover the closed bleachers with little pieces of blue tape, and then we attached the black paper to it. covered it with mushrooms and butterflies, but it was looking a little plain in my opinion. so i made more clouds. YAY CLOUDS. ahaha. it added some splash of blue. as soon as that was done, we began work on the ballon part. we made one huge arch, two small ones, and lots of collums all different color combinations. they came out pretty cute, they had a butterfly (ballon) on top of them. all of those helium blown balloons needed to have a weight. but the books werent going to be used becasue they looked unattractable, so we used water balloons. im surprised they lasted till the dance was over. i was sure some stupid people would throw one into the crowd. n e whoo. when we got done it turned out pretty. this left me more excited for the dance. knowing that it was only like 7 or 9 hours away. i couldnt wait. boyyy was i wrong, i didnt know it yet but i would end up dissapointed.



well i got home, took like a 30 min nap i think, then woke up to go outfit shopping. i went to ross, i didnt have the money to go anywhere else. AHAHAHA. but it was very successful.! i got there looked through one part of the rack and instantly found my shirt. the tie was no biggie either, it was jst there, in plain view. tried it on and acted slutty on the mirror. ROFLMFAO !. was happy with how it looked so i was done. (: good thing i found things fast becasue the line was huge!!!!! from the cashier to basically the fitting rooms. thats like on the other side of the store. line went pretty quick, came home and decided to hop in the shower. i needed all the time i could get to let my hair dry naturally. got out of the shower and letted the drying do its work. only 3 more hours to go.! watched me some spongebob. i still cant believe that its being show, with new episodes coming out here and there. i still remember when i had a spongebob theme party when i was little. ahaha. good times. well it finally came down to 7 o'clock and i needed to get ready and leave. got to the gym and waited for my date to come (my bitch slut whore Bexy). i had to work first shift on the concessions, and second shift on the tickets. there went 30 mins of my night. because i had to do this, we couldnt take our pics in the begginning so we had to wait till i was done, and when i finished we went straight over there. the background was cute. good choice dance committee!. i feel like we are going to come out cute in our pic, but then again i always say that and i dont end up liking the end result. they should just let me take and edit our pic. it would come out sooo much better. ahahah. finished that bussiness so we went to put our stuff away and join our group of friends that were already dancing. as the dance progressed, i started to feel very dissapointed, the dj sucked some big ones. it didnt even look like it was the one we wanted. they forgot to bring things, and their playlist of music wasnt that great. that might of been the reason why i wasnt my usual slutty self. i mean i didnt even get to FREAK! i might of only done it like 2 or 3 times. in fact it went the other way around for me. the girls where the ones freaking on me. LOL. know i know why guys just stand there and the girls do all the work HAHA. but hey im not straight so i wanted to freak dammit! lol. hunchback and his date were very weird. eww. i dont even want to think about them right now. well, it finally came to an end. pretty quickly ima add. by them time i looked at my itouch it was already 10 freakign 30. like WOW,. where did the time go. ahaha. well yeah it came to and end and we had to tear down the paper walls that we put soo much hard work in making LOL. wow. that was fun too see. but i was thirsty as hell, literally. i drank a whole bottle water in one drink. pretty shocking. i got my dance refund money! 15 dolla. woot woot. i did al the things that were needed to be done in order to get it so i was happy. but 10 of those dollars are going to my sister bc she let me borrow to pay for the tickets. LAMEEE! so now i have 5 dollars left, which are going to buying my NEW MOON ticket. woot woot sooo excited. i know for a fact that wont dissapoint me. it had been decided to go to eddied house for the afterparty. but i never told my mom about it so when she called me demanding for me to go home, i had to lie and say that we were barely cleaning up. that lie wasnt going to last long, so when i was at his house, she called again, and i couldnt lie any longer. (she had previously said that i couldnt go out anywhere else because "it wasnt the time to be at other peoples houses" like oooomygod.) so i had to say for them to pick me up. i had to leave early. ugh. i hate it that i have to be told what to do. and what time i should go home. that did it for me, im seroiously moving out as soon as i can. (that was one factor that added to my descision, the other was was idea that i wouldnt have to cut the grass anymore! HAHAAHAHAHA.)



well i came home, and decided to not go to sleep yet, for which i didnt know that i was hella tired inside already. so i watching an online movie. (cloudy with a chance of meatballs) and i didnt even notice when i knocked out. i woke up to my mom telling me that im going to fall off the bed, and my computer closed on my desk. ( i was watching it in bed). pretty tiring day it was. i got to sleep for 11 hours!. which was nice change after the past two days that i only slept like 6 hours. ugh.

Rally+HOMECOMING game.

wow. what a day it was yesterday. from the time i left home and till the time i came home, i had spent about 16 hours out of my house. WOW.! well it was finally our homecomign day, which meant rally, + game!. i didnt go to any of my classes, yay me!i spent all day decorating the gym for the afterschool rally. in that time our deco "comissioner" decided to actually take charge of things, or at least that what she looked like she was doing. but in fact she was just bossying people around. can u say LAMEE? well yeah, she decided to start telling what to do and how to set up things. i didnt think it was a good thing for her to do, she is taking "charge" after all the hard work is done when she never did anything, plus the day of, she was jst bossy. not a good thing for her reputation. BUT HEY! SHE NEVER HAD A GOOD REPUTATION FROM THE START, SO IT JST GOT ADDED TO HER ACCOUNT. the side walls turned out pretty plain in my opinion, the background was white, (which wasnt supposed to be like that, it was supposed to be different colors but she decided to change it last minute. lame. ) the pictures that were posted up didnt fill much of the space, alot of white was being seen and not soo much color, which is what ALCIE IN WONDERLAND is mainly abou, so me and jessicaaaa decided to add more color to them. when we finished it looked better than how it started, which was exactly what we were aiming for, we arent professionals. LOL.

when the rally finally started, for some reason i had a bad feeling that it was going to go downhill, reason
#1, the stage where the court finalist were supposed to sit, was taken out last minute, and i truly mean last minute! it was already assembled but then it turned out we couldnt use it becasue it wasnt safe so we had to take it out, and make them sit in chairs. how lame can it get.

reason #2, i didnt feel like there were going to be alot of acts, and not alot of good acts. BOY was i wrong. there were mostly good acts.! starting off, were the cheerleaders, which i must say i LOVED their performance. noncee nailed her backhand-spring. (i hope i spelled it right LOL) and the routine was awesome. a few slutty moments which i loved! got some tips! AHAH.
jannelle singing was also really great. she sang Love by keysha cole. which left with goosebumps THE GOOD THING. i lovee when she sings the high notes! GO NELLE!. there was a class dance off aswell, let me jst say i didnt think a straight guy, let alone a straight football player guy had thee balls to do what he did. LOL. kristal has some competition in the stanky leg dance (:

congrats to jannelle, and eddie on winning king and queen, i somehow knew that it was goign to turn liek that, they running with opposite people (each others rivals) and end up winning together. !

the game was AWESOME!. we KILLED C.I. 68-16 i believe. it was a great win for us, but in the other hand, it was extremely sad, to know that it was our last high school football ever. we had sooo many funny memories in those bleachers, they will never be forgotten. it hasnt really hit me that the events that we do this year are going to be our last ones. gradutation is going to come in a flash and i dont think ill be ready for it. i dont want to start talkign about the end of our high school lifes because then ima start crying on the memories that i have gained these four years.

on a happy note, after the game we went to Rusty's pizza, my first tiem there, pizza was good. (: all the football players were there, well the ones that matter LOL they were soo HOT. i have my eye, well IVE HAD my eye on three football players. they are HOT.
i got home at 12 i believe and knocked out. i was hella tired. ugh. i had to wake up early today for dance deco, but thats another story, for another time. later tonight or tomorrow. ahahaa.

Stress/ furstration mode.

today was a super stress day for me like oohh myy. ! the suppossedly rainy weather didnt add any happyness to my well being lol. classes today were boring as usual. i got away with not turning in my math homework yet again LOL nese was hella boring. ASB, was semi productive, i worked on the letters for our sidewalls. landreth was even more boring. thesis statement was due today, scribbled some crap on a index card and turned it in. i was majorly flirty with you know who must not be named ( ahahahah that sounded like harry potter.)

speakign about harry potter, in the two hour nap that i accidentally took a while ago, i dreamt that i was recommending the last harry potter book to some people at school. AHAHAH. pretty funny. well i must say, that last boook sure was the best one. and i cant wait till its movie is made!.

back to my day: physio was jst a total waste of my time, it turns out that stuff was collected when we went to the suppossedly ASB/YR BOOK picture trip. whcih we didnt!, darn u WASC!!!! soo i didnt get any extra credit for my work. -_- and finally french. OOOOOHHH MYYYYYYY! dont even get me started on french. french this year is just soo soo lame. complete waste of my time. madame matthews is actually more attentive with us then she ever was. darn!

AFTER SCHOOL.!, was a busy deco afternoon. we had to get our shit done. mainly the sidewall letters, and the HUGE Alice, which in my opinion, was tooo much to do within one and half hours. too much tracing, (difficult tracing, the paper put me in such a pickel - like claudia said) we werent going to have time to paint so we made an executive desicion and downgraded Alice, to about 2 more higher than myself. i personally think that should of been done long ago, but hey IM NOT COMMISSIONER. to add to my already furstrated mode with the so called commissioner, everybody sorta left when we still had like and hour of deco, ummmmmm yeaaaa. hello?? we could of used their help. o well i guess. we still got our shit done. and just in time. (at least i hope we did.)
i feel like i brag to much about this whole commissioner thing, dont u think so???, well i guess thats how i am, and thats how i feel, so im not gonna shut up. LMAO.

jst finished the math hmwk that is due manana, still need to do the previous one that was already turned in.

OH! i totally forgot to mention about the drama and unfairness that the Deco "commissioner" was causing (here i go again) it turns out that today, well yesterday i guess, considering the time, we were expected to be at school at 7:15 to decorate the quad, which i tried to achieve, but once i turn off my alarm, lay my head down for two more minutes, that ends up turning into 20 minutes, LOL so i didnt make it at that time, i made it at 7:40. n e whoo, no decoration were made because our advisor forgto to request the ladder, and the people that went early(which were only about 6) were jst there laying on the table. some were working but the rst were just there. well it turns out that a list was made by the "commissioner" stating only the names of the people that went today (yesterday) early mornign to decorate, were to be asked to be let out to decorate today (friday) during the rally. this was a big NO NO in my eyes. she wasnt even considering the people that gave up their free day on wednsday to go do deco practically the whole day. i told her that she should considered them, but then i told her I would make a new list (see im taking charge again LOL). well i did make a new list only including the people that gave up their day on wed to do deco. i wasnt gonna put her name down but since she was the "commissioner" of the deco commitee i had too. o! and when it was tiem to turn the list in, she wanted to turn in the one she made( which i took) along with the one i made. but i jst pretended to not know where it was. :) its not that i ahve something against the people on her list, (most of them were going to be in my list n e ways bc they were among the few of us that went on wed, and some were gettin out for some other committee anyway) but they didnt even make the effort to go on wed and help out, i didnt think they should of been rewarded in being taken out of class. DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA!furstration furstration furstration!

well today (friday) is our rally. ! o god, what a busy day it will be. im going to be in school from 8-10pm and then not even go home till like 12 not sure ( going out with friends to eat or something)im going to be hella tired. blahhh. thats what i get for joining ASB. HAHAHA. which i dont have any problem at all, my free time was being wasted anyways at home laying down, watching tv, or staring at the computer screen. nice change for me.

New Beggining. 11.11.09

so i decided to change up the way i blog. i had a tumblr account but i hardly went on it. i decided to start a blog right here on blogger, and try and test it out.

so ive been in school for like what? 3 months already, practically. classes have been good. ive gone from a D+ to a B+ in AP government. that extra work on those outlines sure does pay off. haha. even though they r a bitch. its the easiest way to earn extra credit for the class. ASB has been great. (: lots of work that i have done. and this week happens to be our HOMECOMING week. ! yay. doing deco for this dance + rally, has been more of a stress than i expected. ahaha. i wouldnt say that im incharge of the decorations. but lets face it and be real. im doing all the work, and im looked at as the "comissioner", so yes. i do consider myself the COMISSIONER of our schools homecoming deco. the real person in charge, hasnt really done anything to show that she should be respected as being the person in charge, other than throw out ideas, and do a few things here and there. when ever people are mixed up on what to do, and she (the commissioner) is nowhere to be found. they always come to me, and have made it a regular habit to come to me only. if she takes the credit for all the things that ive done, and fellow ASB members have done, theres seriously going to be some problems. im not gonna have it.

we had to go to claudia's house today to work on deco bc the school was closed for veterans day, and i must say, it was very successful. we did a mass production of butterflies, mushrooms, and flowers, and cardmen. (our homecoming theme is ALICE IN WONDERLAND) and once again, we did this with out the comissioner's presence. so once again, i had to take charge, wich about now has become a regular habit. we worked from 9am to about 3:30pm. and for the amount of work we did, with the little amount of people we had (compared to our actual ASB class) i say it was very successful. yay. ty to everyone who went. (:

i came home, and in a hurry went online to watch lady gaga's latest music video. "bad romance" i must say. it was very well done in my opinion, i always love her videos. (:

IN TWILIGHT NEWS: it is official!!! robert pattinson (who i am obsessed with) and kristen stewart (who i absolutely love) are dating. they were spotted holding hands in paris. i jst want to say that im soo happy. i love them that they are together in the movie, and i love it even more that they are together in real life. lets hope nothing goes wrong, and they split and they mess up the chemistry on the last movie. "breaking dawn" (knocks on wood). speaking about twilight. im absolutely excited for the premier of NEW MOON. !! like ooomygod. i jst cant wait till november 20th. we are sooo gonna buy our ticekts nov 16, or nov 17. that premier day has to be seen by me n friends. (: ! cant wait.



well, i think its time for me to start on that homework of mine. AP government hmwk to be exact. and outline to be even more specific ahaha. ima try my best to blog alot more. i like spilling my thoughts in this. pretty fun. (: