hurts.

..its times like these when i wish that i could just crawl under a rock, and stay there forever. i dont like feeling like this.. like my world is already falling apart piece by piece as a new chapter in my life is barely going to begin.. and once again, im feeling like im being questioned, like im being doubted. and thats not a pretty feeling to feel, trust me. im to the point where i dont want to do anything anymore.

i had a plan, a surprise planned, but now... i dont even know if i should go through with it.. she wants to question my friendship..? her out of all people.. i honestly dont see the reason behind it. yes i havent been that social, or even plain out not social for idk how long, but that doesnt mean anything. that doesnt mean i hate everyone or that im not including them in my life. i havent done anything, planned anything, or even gone anywhere where people should feel like im not including them. I HAVENT DONE ANYTHING to not not include ANYONE, so it honestly hurts me that people even feel like that, especially you, you out of all people, you that means everything to me. i really dont want to end my high school experience like this... were suppossed to stay together forever.. remember.... if it honestly is my fault for all of this, then im truly sorry, i dont like making people feel like they are no longer part of my life, im not that type of person and i thought it was clear as to what kind of friend i am..