is my time coming?

anxious, nervous, happy, worried, scared, excited.. these are all the feelings im feeling at the moment. the reason being: a boy. an old stranger is coming down this weekend, and stranger he is aha. ive waited a little over 3 months for him, and the time is finally ending. i made sure not to waste my time waiting for him, i had my little adventure at the begginig of this year, so i wasnt completely lonely. now, 24 hrs or even less than that is what keeps me separated from that stranger.. that stranger i never got to meet this past november. he said he would return, and i hope he is returning because of me. but i have to be careful, i dont want to be gettin my hopes up too soon like i always tend to do, i have to keep my feet firmly planted on the ground, cant be on cloud 9 right now. first, he has to arrive, and second, we need to see if he hasnt forgotten about me. my mind has it set that hes coming down, that were going to meet up, and that something will spark. i cant let my mind control me right now, its not healthy for me. we all know what that got me last time. absolutely nothing. i dont want to end up like that again, i wasnt a happy camper. now this weekend... this weekend will tell it all.