after watching Dear John, i came to a conclusion that i seriously despise/hate romantic movies at the moment. everytime i finish watching romances, i feel like shit. like they put my life in perspective, and show me how pathetic my love life really is. i get so jealous of the people in the movies, and how perfect they have it to have someone that loves them. someone they spend their days talking to, and being all lovey dovey with. i dont have that, and ive never had that.
i dont mean to sound desperate, but i mean understand my situation. im almost freaking 18 yrs old, and i've never been in a relationship. like seriously, i know that im not a freaking HOT ass guy, but like am i really soo ugly that i cant get anybody to be intersted in me?? ive been madly in love with people, have had major crush obsessions, but never have i had any of those things directed towards me.
i doubt people actually know how miserable i feel. yea i act like im freaking desperate to have someone, but its not just that. Im tired of waiting, ive been waiting my whole four years of high school for something to actually happen, and im jst to the point that i feel that if i keep waiting, not doing anything about it, that i will never be with anyone. i hate this feeling, but i jst cant help it. im naive to that whole world that i jst dont know what to do, or how to act.
i wanna say, things will come when the time is right, but im tired of going by that. TIRED.
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