so yesterday after everyone left from bexy's surprise birthday party. it was just me, sara, and bexy herself. haha. we were chillen in the couch talking about who knows what, but then i started talking about my life. it was pretty deep. i was just going off about how in 7th grade was were all the talking started about my sexuality, and how i started to like guys. sara asked me when was it that i knew that i was gay and i told her it was about 6th grade. but as i thought about it more, i came across very old memories about my life in mexico, and i relized that i had known about the male body more in depth when i was a kid. as i told my story about the things that happened and the things i did with my friends, bexy and sara just kept laughing and didnt believe me. they said it was my mind making me believe what i wanted to believe. but i know its nothing like that. i KNOW what i did, and i KNOW what happened.
dont think anything weird like i got raped, or sexually abused as a child, it was nothing like that. it was just boys testing things, and playing around. i mean, i didnt know what i was doing, but i know for a fact that it happened. as i kept talking about my life bexy and sara were all laughs and i couldnt help but to laugh with them, it was a funny situation, me bringing all this up out of nowhere and them not believing me, i couldnt help it but to laugh with them. i explained how i was introduced to the penis at a very young age, and how me and my friends did many..... things. i dont know how to explain it with out sounding like to total lunatic, but bottom line is that we were kids that didnt know what we were doing, well... at least I DIDNT.
my final thoughts on all of this are that, as much as my friends dont wanna believe those things actually happened, all i can say is that theres memories that you will never forget, no matter how old they are..... mine just happen to be those.
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