My December.

so ive been away from bloggin for a long time now. like 3 weeks no?? idk what happened, but im back. last blog was like in the beggining of december, and now im on thee last day of december. remembering the december i had, and anxious for the new year to arrive.

my december has really been stressful. money stressful is a better explanantion. who knew that i would have to buy lots of presents this year within a budget. woahh. the last week before going into winter break, i had 3 presents to give out. they were secret santa/ white elephant. since i get sooo guilty buying a cheao present, i try and go all out, which is my downfall. EXTREMLY. well yes anyway. that week had me all stressed out, aside from the presents, there was school. im officially failing government AP. woahh, what a nice present to have going into christmas week. right?? that had me down during school. in the afternoons it was a much better atmosphere. ASB secret santa was FUNN. i took apple pie. which i dont even know if it was eaten LOL. i loooved all the food that was taken. by the end of the event i was pregnant with triplets (food babies). woahh. it was sooo good though!. aha. but yeah. we ate, gossiped, and had a blast. when exchange of gifts came.. it was funny to see who had gotten who. i was wrong about the person that i thought had me. instead of julisa it was mae! haha. she gave me exactly what i wanted. EDWARD CULLEN !. ahaha. a poster that is now on my wall, behind my laptop, that is staring at me as i type this. aha. soooo HOT. lol. white elephant was a blast!. people got the craziest gifts ever i swear!. from a rubber chicken, to tapatio, to mustaches. pretty fxcken hilarious! i stole a bennie from ms buen but then she stole it back. booo. i got a movie in the end. the wedding date. which i lovee! ahah. it was pretty fun. lots of giftcards were being stolen, restolen, and stolen again. i had a really good time.

AA potluck was very yummy as well. lots of good food.! i was pregnant yet again! lol. i took macaroni pasta. yummy. interaction was made with friends and their families. ahaha. roro that slore and her man. talking while gallegos dissed us saying that 2013 or 2014 class would be better than us. WAT EVER! ahah. backstabber! over all it was a really good night.

two birthday parties ocurred while i was away from blogger. eddies and andrews. !

EDDIE: ohh myyy what a fun night that was. from the bomb tacos via the taquero, to the HILARIOUS kareokee time. ahaha. i swear those tacos were bomb. i had like 8 ! fatass right? ahah. it was heaven though. friends played twister, then i joined. i won my round! because andrew couldnt handle my ass being right on his face. ! AHAHAHA. that was a really hard move i had to make. im glad he gave up. i dont think i would have have hold it. after that it was kareokee time!. woot. OMG that was the best first experiece with kareokee ever. from destinys child, to hilary duff, it was a pretty crazy ass time. LINA and BEXY were they main entertainment of the night. their crazyness surely deserves an award. ahahaha. they were screaming crawling on the floor, and twisting in every way they could.
BEST MOMENT OF THE NIGHT:

so we were doing kareokee and lina was cooking herself some meat for tacos, on a pan. were being loud and having a good time, i guess lina wanted to know what all the fuss was about bc she came from the kitchen stood infront of the tv screen stirring the meat from the pan that she removed from the stove!. i swear! it was fxcken hilarious. she jst popped out of nowhere with a pan that was steaming like huge amounts of smoke where coming out of its contents. like always andrew couldnt handle it and he went to the corner laughing sooo hard. ahaha. OMG. funny ass night.

ANDREW: so andrew didnt know that his mom was planning a surprise birthday party for him. it was the sweetest thing ever. she decorated the house hollywood theme, (fits perfect with andrew duhh) like she went all out. it was really pretty. when andrew arrived he was like speechless for like 5 seconds and then he came back to reality. aww. he cried while hugging his mom. i felt tears coming to my eyes but i holded them back. pretty sweet moment. his mom had a slideshow of pictures of his life growing up via the tv. WOAH. what a change! ahaha. it was really cute seeing his baby self. i myself made an appearance in that slideshow ! woot! a picture that we had taken our sophmore year, when we were both wearing hollister. (: pretty nice right? aww. it turned out that at his party there was a taquero as well. ohh myyy. i was sooo down for more tacos. ahaha. ate like 8 yet again. ! im such a fatass i confess. but dont think im like a fat person like the "deco commissioner" from homecoming time. remember that person? well yeah. im not like that at all. thank god. ! (: but anyways we had a bomb ass time. dancing occurred in the backyard. pretty intense stuff. kristal my black friend was trying to hold back on her slutty dancing ahaha. she was soo tempted but she didnt want to corrupt the minds of the little kids that where watchin us. WHICH SHE FAILED ON. ! a little girl copied her bending over! omg sooo funny. ! ahaha. the night of course couldnt have been completed without the show that LINA put on. ahaha. ohhh myyyy. she was dancing ALL CRAZY! crawling, giving lapdances, gettin hyphy. omg sooo funny. ahah. LINA always knows how to entertain us. (:

the week after was christmas week. lots of mall trips were made. family ones and one with friends. thee guys to be exact. ahaha funny time. walked all around the mall, went to spencers, had a funny ass time, and did all random stuff. by random i mean, miguel conversating with a hobo at starbucks. ahaha. sooo freaky. we where there at starbucks and a guy jst goes to where miguel is sitting and starts telling him his life story. ahaha. i could tell miguel was uncomfortable. LOL. took some picture and posted them on twitter. who wouldnt??? LOL.!... eddie kept bitching at me the whooole time we where there. bitching about how im such a desperate debbie. AHAHAHAHAH. seriously! the whole time!. even on the car back home. ! LOL. ohhh eddie. he is FUNNY. and ignorant. (:

christmas was fun. i got a aero sweater, which fits me o soo well. (: love itt. and lots of giftcards. (:

the week that im on now has been pretty blah. nothing has happened. YET. well, maybe something has, a boy, but more about that another time. <3>

OH!!! i almost forgot! i got my permit! woot! after my second time LOL. i passed it with 5 mistakes. niceee. ! that is the good news about that situation, the bad news is that i got my permit like 2 weeks ago, and ive been only taken out to drive one day, for like 10 mins. ohhhh myyyy G. i get sooo furstrated! i need to practice more! gahhh. but my sister is soo lazy. -_-.

catched up now? good. lol. i left some stuff out, like christmas day movie night. watched sherlock holmes. cassie was crazy. she passed a chapstick around. a chapstick that looked liek a joint. we all were like O.o haha. dennys afterwards. good meal!.

me tired. ill post stuff more frequently!!. woot.

DEAD week.

this week has jst been a dead week for me. nothing really happened. my friends, (eddie r) kept making fun of me when ever i looked sad. he kept talking about how i was emotional cause of apollo, which was certainly not the case. i had gotten over him monday night. but that didnt stop eddie from still talking about my desperation haha. i got a new nickname (desperate debbie) which was noncee's nicknmae before i think, but now i got that tittle. lol.

MONDAY. aside from all the homework drama. it was a pretty blahh day. apparently i still showed signs of sadness and it was pretty obvious to everyone. i retold my story to friends, and got rejected from gettin apollos number. LOL. by the end of school i was pretty much over him. walked to OC with andrew, before gettin picked up by cassie. she dropped us off and we jst killed time. the test was like watever to me at this point and time. i jst wanted to be done with bio. when class was over, walked to my sisters so she could take me home, but then nelle called me to go to the basketball game. got dropped off home, left my stuff, and walked back to hueneme. stayed in the quad listening to my ipod. nelle came and we entered the gym. got me some cup o noodles YUM. soon more friends showed up. we had fun. they kept talking about random stuff, and laughin the whole time. got me a second cup o noodle. (they were bomb) intense game that was. tied up and moved into overtime. we won in the end though.

TUESDAY. nothing exciting happened.

WEDNSDAY. school was school. came home. prepared for my sister's surprise birthday. lots of food we had. pizza, ceaser salad, chicken pasta, enchiladas, garlic bread. o soo yummy. cousins came stuffed our bellys till we were pregnant with triplet food babies. played "would you rather" with an app that i got for my itouch. pretty interesting things came up lol. "would you rather pull out ur hair one by one, or pull your dog's teeth one by one" we all chose pull dogs teeth. AHAHAHAH. we are sooo selfish. talked to our other couisin via webcam. people started to leave. when everyone left i still talked via webcam. studied the drivers manual while my cousin did homework. finish readin and took some online practice tests. PASSED ALL of them!.

THURSDAY. the only great thing about this day was the ASB/YR book picture fieldtrip. left as soon as nutrition was over, and had done our regular asb business. bus ride was fun. listened to my ipod, and tried to get into pictures from behind. i was successful (: itzy called me andrew. ohh nooo!. haha arrived at ventura pier. this year the picture was taken at the very end of the pier. windy day, not soo good for my hair. i feel like im gonna come out super ugly in it. but to get my hopes up. i KNO for a FACT that the YEARBOOK picture will look EXTREMELY UGLY because THE HUNCHBACK WAS LAYING IN FRONT LIKE HE WAS FREAKING LITTLE MERMAID. soo that got my hopes up. OH! and he was laying on DOG PEE. (: as soon as that was over we rushed back to thee bus because we all knew what was next. MALL. yay. the bus there was filled with desperation. well on my part. haha. that got shot down immediately when we arrvied. we only had 30 mins to shop becasue yrbook didnt get permission to leave 6th. ughh. FML. well i went to shop, and i wasnt going to leave empty handed. while my friends went to eat i went to shop. it was funny. trying out clothes here and there. when it was time to leave, i felt accomplished bought two shirts and a pair of skinnies, and i tried all of them out. FAST SHOPPER huh? well i did go on a mission, and nobody was going to ruin it. as i walked in the bus everyone was staring at me. like he had time to go shopping. yeah that right bitches. i went to the mall to SHOP, not to EAT. haha. loved thee feeling. got back to school. we were free to leave. went to thee parking lot, with miguel and friends. tried to bust a mission by fittin 9 people into a five people car. 3 people sayed they were down to go in the trunk. pretty embarrasing moment, hoping into the trunk and closing it. ohh nooo. that was crazy. but then they couldnt take it so two left. i decided to leave as well, i had to be back at school for fakken tutoring. so i left. i was going to go home, but i decided to go to thee DMV to take my permit test. if only my parent had gone with me i would of taken it. i needed parent signature so i was unable to take it. nothing interesting happend afterwards. tutoring, and the rest of the evening.

FRIDAY. school was school. afterschool we had a LAME AA meeting. i was going to go take my permit test that afternoon but NO. stupid gallegos wants everyone PRESENT in these meeting. ugh. there went my afternoon. when that was over i left home. my day wasnt over though. got a txt from jana asking if i wanted to go to thee movies. of course!. we went in a huge group. 12 of us to be exact. we watched BROTHERS. pretty ok movie. only one tense filles part. came home and watched two online movies. CLOUDY WITH A CHANCE OF MEATBALLS and JULIE & JULIA. both were very loveable movies. (:

pretty blah week it was right. ? well next week for sure im taking my permit. tuesday to be exact. lame BIO class is taking up my monday afternoon. ugh! i jst want to be done with it already. wish me luck.

rollercoaster ride.

.... ugh. well. what a heckit thanksgiving day it was. i can finally say that ive been taken on a rollercoaster ride. a boy has finally noticed me. but damm. what ride did he freaking take me on.

well it all started thanksgiivin day (thursday) i happen to go on twitter and noiced that my friends xilen, and cassie were having a conversation. idk how but i joined. all morning me and them were conversating via twitter, wich is kind of ironic becasue i hate it when people converse via twitter lol. but yeaah n e whoo. we were conversating about all kinds of things, from a turkey penis, to a thong in a jar, to my big mouth, and my infactuaiton with penises haha. what a great way to start of a holiday. well yeah. as we were conversating xilen's cousins were at her house, they came down for the holiday. one of them noticed me. i guess nobody knew he was gay becasue at first he was dening it, everyone was blaming me becasue apparently i had very STRONG GAY HORMONES and that they were reaching him and i was turning him gay. he thought i was cute, because of my hair. "hes into curly hair and shit" said xilen. well yeah he kept denying it unitl he finally cracked and told xilen that he was gay. she announced it in twitter with capital letters. haha. by this time i hadnt really payed attention to her tweets saying that her cousin was into me, but then as soon as she said that he was gay, then i began to notice. i began to ask her questions about him, non stop if he was really into me. and he was. i found it shocking that someone had finally noticed me, my tummy began to get filled with butterflies. i told xilen. well then HOOK US UP!. then she hit me with the news. "idk fernie, hes from frisco (san fran) so idk how thatll work" as soon as she said that. my stomach was empty. butterflies were no where to be found. i felt so empty and sad. i didnt even know what to say. i mean i didnt know the guy, butt he fact that he was into me. the first boy that was interested in me, made me feel close to him. i wanted to be with him, in some strange sorta way. very weird of me to say. i sound crazy right??? well i couldnt really help myself. ive never been hit with that kind of emotion before. well yeah. i was sad. but then she told me that he was still after me. butterflies came back into my stomach soo quickly. it was a boost to my ego. knwoing that someoen was chaising me. haha. but yeahh. i got all happy again.
as afternoon came, i felt like he was taking forever to ask for my number. i mean. how long does it take for someone to ask for a number if they are really interested right? well yeah. i found out that he didnt know what to say. that got me a little sad again. y couldnt he jst try it out?. then she said " he doesnt wanna fuck it up, because he doesnt know what to say" that made me happy again becasue in my ears it sounded like he wanted to have something. and he didnt wanna mess up his chances. but since xilen has no cellular device, she had to get off and that was the last thing i heard from them all night. if ur wondering why dont i jst speak to him personally? then heres my answer.

i had asked xilen if he had a myspace, she said he didnt, not even facebook. i was like ummmm u serious?. i mean myspace isnt that big today as it wwas before but i found it really weird that he didnt. he didnt aske for my number for reasons stated above. why didnt i just give him my number by myself, or ask for his number? well i was caught up in the moment, filled with untouched emotion that i didnt have thee mind to do those things.

so yeah. i was sad all night. not being able to hear from them. woke up next morning and still nothing on twitter. apparently xilen had gone black friday shopping so she woke up really late. she was sleeping while i was over here becomign anxious. i sound obsessed right? ahaha understand me and dont judge. well yeah she finally came on, but he wasnt at her house. he was visitin his grandpa. i told her that i felt that his feelings might of gone away but then she told me that she didnt think so. earlier he had called her asking if i was gonna go to the game that was going to be taking place at my school. CIF football. hueneme (us) versus westlake. so i got all happy again. he said he wanted to try and go if i was. made me realize that he wanted to meet up. so i got all happy. got dressed, and when it was time to leave i left. i had butterflies in my stomach until the game started. but before that xilen came down with another set of news. she wasnt going to be able to attend thee game. i was like ughhhhhhhh! nooooo. she said that he might still show up, since he hadnt called her telling her otherwise. but how was i supposed to know who he was? i didnt have his number. he didnt knwo where i hanged out or sit. and i didnt even know how he looked. NOW i do sound like im on fakken crack right? being obsessed with this boy that i dont evne know, and dont even know how he looks. all i knew about him was that he was 19, he went to artschool in san fran. and that he was "toned". that was all i knew about him. but yeah i waited in the place where xilen usually sits to see if he might see me there but nobody came up to me. after a while i descended down to my regular seat with my friends.

during the whole game. i had that empty feeling again. i knew that he hadnt told me personall that he was gonna attend, but i thought that he WAS surely gonna come. the game didnt help at all. we lost bad. nobody was in the mood that night. we hardly cheered. not to say that i was because i didnt. the cold was a major thumbs down as well. freezing as hell, and wind that wouldnt stop blowing. my hair looked like sex hair. well yeah. i came home after it was over but no twitter stuff. went to sleep empty. woke up today. went on twitter, but nothing. it wasnt until the afternoon when i found out that he had left back to san fran. at this point i was crushed. not like super crushed, like crying and stuff, but the empty feeling got bigger. xilen told me that he wanted to take me out to eat becasue they were going out to celebrate the win that xilen had on soccer, but that if i went his dad might of flipped out. his family doesnt know about his sexuality. so i wouldnt wanna have caused problems anyway. this made me fell a little better. i asked her if he had said anything. she hit me with another pair of news. "he said he will try harder next time and he'll take out" the butterfies came pouring in. ughhh.

im guessing the next time he will come would be for christmans vacation. i hope he does. he gave me a reason for me to look forward to winter break. i hope he does come, and then we can try it out, finally try it out. ughh.


now u see the kind of ride i was in these past three days. ughh. this boyy i swear.

I've NEVER.........

well another great day of this week off. well i think its better to say great afternoon since i pretty much didn't no anything in the mornign except wake up shower and eat. well to get straight to thee point.

ive noticed that we officially have a cassie movie night classic game to play!. its Ive never.. (10 finger game) we always seem to play it when ever cassie holds a movie night. and its always at night after most people have gone home, and thee movies have ended. its always the same group of friends playing as well, occassionaly new people come in and its fun to see their reactions to peoples questions and results. ima stay true to thee saying what ever happens at cassies house, stays at cassies house. so i wont spill any of the stuff that is said there. BOY do stuff really get spilled. ahahaha. sooo mnay juice facts that ive never known. it makes me feel like i kno my friends more now. ahaha. to tease a bit, our games arent innocent, they are xxx-rated. meaning the most type of questions being asked are sexual, so u get the point in what i mean JUICY facts.
n e whoo. i find it extremely funny that my friends ask these sexual questions, mostly aiming at me, expecting me loose very quickly. but in fact, im such an innocent person (even though i dont act like one, i act like a MAJOR SLORE! (slut/whore) ahah) and people jst dont believe that, they find it shocking to know that i havent done the things they say. i mean, im pretty much an open book., (no lie) but my book doesnt have that many facts, yes it does have some pretty interesting juicy ones, but not alot. well yeah, anyways. we spent like an hour playing that game, FUNNY as hell to see people going into the "40 fingers" mark. not to mention any names, *cough* ANDREW! *cough* lol. soo funny. and this happen while i was still on my first round (10 fingers). see what i mean im the most innocent one there, apart from cassie, that slore is more of an angel than me, or is sheee,, hmmm she might not want to reveal some stuff ahah, but i still love her. (:
yes people do try to get me out but not as much as my friend eddie r. like ooomygod. i swear hes like out to get me, and reveal everything about me. every sexual questions he says its always aimed at me, he get furstrated when he sees that ive never done them haha. so he goes to the most obvious questions, "ive never been borned in mexico, ive never own a hollister shirt, ive never permed my hair (which doesnt even apply to me in the first place. ahaha). " but yeah. i love that game. i dont mind spilling a few secret here and there and i certainly dont mind gettin to know people wayyy better ahah.

FUN. right?